I miss you

In Every way I try to look at it, it just hurts. I miss you so much and wonder why. I doubt my motives many times . . . or let me say I tried doubting myself but it was futile. I tried pushing it away but it stayed. I tried writing but it came out wrong. So I decided to spill it out like this

I miss you dear friend

I miss our hangout

I miss our chit chat

I miss our chilling at your place

I miss playing with you

I miss driving with you

I miss texting with you

I miss joking with you

I miss telling you stuff

I miss talking about your boyfriend

I miss talking about my girlfriend

I miss talking about my crazy character

I miss making fun with you

I miss writing with you

I miss strolling with you

I miss window shopping with you

I miss confiding in you

I miss your lil’ secrets

I miss being built spiritually by you

I miss talking about God with you

I miss poking your dimples

I miss shaking your head

I miss scattering your hair

I miss tickling you.

Matter of Fact, I miss you.

. raQ

I need a new Tree

You told me not to touch
I honestly decided not to
Then I wanted to, then I needed to
My hands stretched and so I pointed the reason to her
I’m now stripped and clothed in sheep skin
You never intended for a lesser glory
But I called it fashion
I ought to be truly sorry
And I truly am
But I pointed away again
Because I have to look strong for her
I looked behind my direction of blame and saw u.
Looking down, Standing at our favorite spot
I couldn’t run to you
and talk all evening because I had to be a man
The Man for this woman you gave me
I have to be the man for her
I have to be the man for her. So I’ll take this bite
I’m sorry but can’t act it
I have shifted my eyes to her so to be a man for her
I stand here under this tree . . . No no no
Hide under this tree for her, from you
Because I made this lesser glory and what it comes with a point
Oh! I need a new tree.

One more thing I would ask

One more thing I would ask

For you to look at me

and smile a little more

make my moment with you

a moment that lives eternally.

One more thing I need from you

To be of great cheer

So I can feel the warmth

Your happiness brings

To me every where

One more thing I look forward to

A time with you again

To see your lovely smile

And feel your happiness

Make me feel so blessed

One more thing I desire to have

That you give me one more reason

To ask for one more thing

And another after another

Because of you, I can’t ever have enough.

What I would love to do

I would love you to play

Play with my hair

Play on my back

Roll about with me

I would love to dance

Slow and hold you close

Fast and spin you around

Funk and share the best laugh

I would love to walk with you

Down on the Quiet street

Race you on a long road

Hold your hand and come from the sunset

I would love to sit with you

On bar stools and store at you

On a couch, sunk in and close to you

On a park Bench: you head on my shoulder

I would love to look at you

Lost in thought of what we share

Looking deep to find what makes you tick

Living in the beauty of your moment

I would love to be with you

To play, to dance

To walk and to sit

To look, look deep…deep.

I love you!

I AM OF THE 6TH OF THE 82ND SONG

I AM OF THE 6th OF THE 82nd SONG

What have I done?

What have I created?

Who have I become?

What am I doing?

Have I misled others?

Or done things to hurt?

Have I loved enough?

Have I done more or less?

Have I created a me of your dreams?

A me you desire?

A me you deserve?

Or have I Created a me of Gods plan?

Who is this that is here before you?

Who is this looking into you light?

Who is this that stares out but sees in?

Who did your daughter turn into?

Am I her, that makes you smile

Or her that sits with you by you right hand

Am I her that emanates true worship

am I still that prized apple of your love

Though I stepped wrong sometimes

I have walked by grace dear father!

I have created a human mistake

but u saved me by Grace your through faith

I am here dear father

Your daughter bought by your blood

I am the her of the 31st proverb

her of the 31st of the 69th song

I am of the 6th of the 82nd Song

I am the daughter of the Most high

raQ

What I find

I look deep

And see little

On the surface I see much

On the inside I have much

I look deep inside

And find things

Not in words, figures or picture

I see a lot . . . a whole lot

I look deep and search deeper

Looking for you

For your approval

and in me I see

The fall from an Image

to a climb

A climb . . .

A climb

I reach deep

Deep in my soul and touch

No I taste you

I taste you and get drunk in the Euphoria

You came in and changed the taste

You changed the taste of me

The Taste I get

Now I can stare and see

See the thing

The things you put here

I taste you glory

I feel your presence

I hear you whisper

And listen to your shout

I sum it all

And my words are just . .

They are just not . . .

I say

My God

You are Magnificent

This I find in me!

raQ

THIS MY DEAR, IS WHERE I AM

THIS MY DEAR, IS WHERE I AM

My heart Longs for you

Coz in you

I Can’t hide my face

I Can’t hide my heart

I can’t hide my feelings.

You lay bare

The thoughts of my heart

And all my deep desires

You know

My worship is made of only this

Of only words

Of only groans

Of only tears and motions, dances. .and and and . . . .

My cry from a heart that has been . .

that has been forgiven

that has been saved

that has seen love

My soul I give to you

And this salvation

You offer me

I take. . .

I hold you my dear God

I hold your eyes

No . . . . you hold my stare

I’m either in awe of you

Or in awe of you

This my dear, is where I am

Opaluwah Akor