I AM OF THE 6TH OF THE 82ND SONG

I AM OF THE 6th OF THE 82nd SONG

What have I done?

What have I created?

Who have I become?

What am I doing?

Have I misled others?

Or done things to hurt?

Have I loved enough?

Have I done more or less?

Have I created a me of your dreams?

A me you desire?

A me you deserve?

Or have I Created a me of Gods plan?

Who is this that is here before you?

Who is this looking into you light?

Who is this that stares out but sees in?

Who did your daughter turn into?

Am I her, that makes you smile

Or her that sits with you by you right hand

Am I her that emanates true worship

am I still that prized apple of your love

Though I stepped wrong sometimes

I have walked by grace dear father!

I have created a human mistake

but u saved me by Grace your through faith

I am here dear father

Your daughter bought by your blood

I am the her of the 31st proverb

her of the 31st of the 69th song

I am of the 6th of the 82nd Song

I am the daughter of the Most high

raQ

What I find

I look deep

And see little

On the surface I see much

On the inside I have much

I look deep inside

And find things

Not in words, figures or picture

I see a lot . . . a whole lot

I look deep and search deeper

Looking for you

For your approval

and in me I see

The fall from an Image

to a climb

A climb . . .

A climb

I reach deep

Deep in my soul and touch

No I taste you

I taste you and get drunk in the Euphoria

You came in and changed the taste

You changed the taste of me

The Taste I get

Now I can stare and see

See the thing

The things you put here

I taste you glory

I feel your presence

I hear you whisper

And listen to your shout

I sum it all

And my words are just . .

They are just not . . .

I say

My God

You are Magnificent

This I find in me!

raQ

THIS MY DEAR, IS WHERE I AM

THIS MY DEAR, IS WHERE I AM

My heart Longs for you

Coz in you

I Can’t hide my face

I Can’t hide my heart

I can’t hide my feelings.

You lay bare

The thoughts of my heart

And all my deep desires

You know

My worship is made of only this

Of only words

Of only groans

Of only tears and motions, dances. .and and and . . . .

My cry from a heart that has been . .

that has been forgiven

that has been saved

that has seen love

My soul I give to you

And this salvation

You offer me

I take. . .

I hold you my dear God

I hold your eyes

No . . . . you hold my stare

I’m either in awe of you

Or in awe of you

This my dear, is where I am

Opaluwah Akor

Faith and the Backup Plan

 Ok  . . .first off . . .I’m going to be as frank as I would be in splitting open this topic. That’s mainly because it bugged me so much at a time when I was regretting why I had not made a backup plan. . . 

Ok here is the what happened. . . I had to do some work for someone and the time was almost due. I had made all my payment and was ready to move on . . .And I had kicked into full throttle, Faith. . . I was just ready to take over or tackle any problem that wanted to pop up. It was at this time that the most important part of the whole plan fell open . . .What I had paid for was somehow (Unexplainably) lost in transit and no one knew where it was. The person I paid to was just not there. . .I practically was in that state of mind where your brain moves into the “. . You have been duped .  . . .) state. 

Now I wasn’t too concerned if I had been duped. All I was bothered about was that I had not planned ahead for such a set back and my first major delivery was going to fall apart. It was like I had no backup plan for my faith . . . then the question kicked in . . . . What is the Backup plan? I mean should I have faith and a backup plan? Or let me rephrase it this way . .

Does faith give room for a back-up plan. . .I mean in case things don’t go as planned.

Well I went for a YWAP (Youth With A Purpose) meeting and asked the question and then . . .  it was fully opened up (With the appropriate bible passages I must add . .) 

So lets do this. . .

WHAT IS FAITH?

Hey  . . .Faith is like believing in stuff u don’t see right? Or let me put it how it was in The King James Version of the bible:

Heb 11:1 

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. 

Or According to The New Century Version (Makers of Biblezene – the coolest bible I have seen  . . . .Yep . . its like a magazine and so like undercover, you won’t even know you are carrying one.  . .  I mean as a deep cove missionary, u would need it or if you are just a regular guy go get . . .  ok sorry)

Here it goes

Faith is being sure of some things we hope for and knowing that something is real even if we do not see it. 

But now lets start with the substance of things hoped for. . . . How if I can feel something. . . like emmmmm . . . yeah wind on my face. . . .or say I’m drenched in sweat and just came out of an air tight room and then I needed air. . .lots of it. And then I feel the wind (“SUBSTANCE” on my face. Do I still have to wait for the sign that says WIND PRESENT to know that there is wind there? I mean  . .The substance of things hoped for .  . . .We hope for the wind and we feel it . . .its substance. . .do we then need a backup plan just in case we don’t see the sign that says wind . . . .  what if we see a sign on the wall that tells us that the room is still air tight, does that change the fact that the wind is blowing on our face. . . . Nope! That answer is No.

 Further more, faith is the Evidence of things hoped for.

                Please check this. In the court, all the judge or Jury is looking for is the evidence. . .they don’t need to be taken back to the moment when the event happened. All they need is evidence. That evidence (Faith) is what makes a man guilty or innocent. Therefore, if I have Faith, which is THE EVIDENCE, then why would I need a backup plan?

                It now is clear to me that the backup plan just makes me one of those guys Jesus talked about  . . .he said if I say I trust him and still have the whole backup plan thing, then my belief is being tossed around like a ship on see. . .by the waves. . . . . .not cool. 

I still wasn’t satisfied. . .but then Jesus hit hard . . . with the question DO I LOVE GOD?  . . . .first off I though. . . .question out of context. .then he came with this. . .Everything. . . .works together for the Good of those that love. . . .(Yep I completed it) God. So you see, even when things go how we don’t plan. . .when things aren’t going according to plan. . . . .lets just Chill! Coz its working to our best interest. 

NOW THE BACKUP PLAN. . .

So with all the events trailing my small growing business. . . . the disappointment I initially encountered, I found the perfect Backup plan. . . . MORE FAITH! . . .I just exercise my faith  the more. . .(so that it can grow from a mustard seed to a mango seed) 

Thanks again.

raQ!

 

 

Through my innocent eyes (by Vanessa Akuboh)

There's no wrong in this world

there's a place that I can always run

there's a hand that I can hold

there's hope,for tomorrow

there's bread, there's laughter

peace, and a happy ever after

there's a hand to hold

in peace and in sorrow and even the brighter tomorrow

its through my eyes of innocence

through these eyes, it all dont make sense

through these eyes that God has blessed

because I see through the word He's given

His still small voice,my conscience, His love the very essence...

Tim ba ka ibukun mi (Youroba)

I can try but they are so many

for the trees, the stars

the moon and this land

for love for life

for family, for friends and more

seeing through these eyes, what more can I ask for

cos He has given me, and made me, all that I am and more 

through these eyes of innocence

through these eyes that God has blessed

I can stand tall in faith, by faith

and say in His love I'll wait

till I see no wrong in this world

till I have my happy ever after and more...     

                                         Vanessa Akuboh

The Portrait of Me

Every Stroke, Brought

Brought me close

. . . .to perfection, to pain

 

Every Stroke

With Precision

. . . .Completing a master piece

. . . . Correcting for the masters peace

 

Every Swipe

. . . . .Clearing a part of me

. . . . Smoothing me out

 

How perfect I turned out

. . . A little more in beauty

. . . .A little more in tears flowing

 

Every Thing worked forth

Everything hurt forth

Every little one of them

 

All swipes working together

All splashes, all clearing

From a perfect and empty canvas

 

All things working out

Creating . . . .

 

A Portrait of Me 

                                      Opaluwah Akor

Please pick up you cardigan

When you Get scared. . . .

I was dead scared this morning. . .not scared like a dog was chasing me or I was busted by the Vehicle Inspection officers(VIO) for beating a traffic light but. . .scared. . . scared of venturing into a new responsibility of a Magnitude I have not ever handled. . .Though I had analysed it before, I just failed to see the light.

I woke up scared today. . .and that has been the way for the past 3 weeks. . .scared coz I had stuff on my desk and was relatively not inspired enough to take on it. I had to finish a quotation and it seemed on my neck. I needed to make payment. . and was scared of what the outcome of my decision was going to be. . .Believe me I was scared.

I guess I am the only one this scared of responsibilities. . . .because . . . .it was real messy . . .(plus my shirts was not straight enough. I guess that one wanted to disorient me). Anyway. . I prayed and it all got better.

Thank you.

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 I really wish it was that easy. . .I prayed and still was scared. . But. . .here is the cool part. . .things started to take shape after I started working. I mean I just felt like sitting and not doing anything till the consequences came and went. . like a gear. .just hide till the winter (or hamatan) is through. Men but I have realized that some hamatan periods never leave. You have to get your cardigan on and keep moving.

So all I did was Pray and ask for the grace to get and put the cardigan on and walk through the hamatan that came by today. . . I got warm but still have some shivers right now. I need more heat. And so need the new grace to pick up my cardigan for tomorrow.

I’m sure all of you need that grace to. .  . or the grace to find and turn on the Air Conditioner. .

I found it to day. . but I need a new one tomorrow. I really want a new cardigan everyday and god has promised it so I’ll ask. . because his graces are new every morning. .

Thanks for the time. . . please pick up you cardigan